2019 is already here. I think for the first time ever I feel that the year didn’t really go by quickly. It wasn’t because of anything bad but because we are anticipating something. Something big. So it makes everything seems like it is moving slower, maybe.
2018 started off normal as it can be, I guess.
In March-April we decided to travel to Athens, before we head for our yearly visit to Israel(where my in-laws are). And it was such a nice experience. I have always wanted to go to Athens, ever since I got interested in mythologies.
2 weeks away from everything was nice. We were as always sad to come back but also glad(well for my part :))
In May, I got pregnant. We did talk about how we were maybe finally ready to become parents, after four years of being together together. Even though that’s hardly true, is it. How can you ever be ready to become parents. Even now, at 39 weeks, I still get nervous about being a parent. Some days, I feel overwhelmed with what ifs. Some days, I can’t wait to start this journey. Some days, I get anxious just thinking about my capability to take care of another human being. Some days, I just want to meet our new friend, to hold him, to nurture him, to be the best person he can be. So yes, never ready.
So now we are a week away to his estimated arrival date. I am curious to know when he will be ready to come out and be with us.
I will be taking a break from having a part time job now(well I started about weeks ago) I have mostly been focused on my illustration work last month.
Our plan is for me to stay at home with the baby for a year or till we send him to preschool/childcare. I will definitely still try to draw and keep up with my online shop, maybe even participate in markets. I know it’s easy to say now and we’ll never know how it will be after the baby comes but that’s our plan for now. But I am hoping I can start with my illustrations as soon as I am able to.